Make me stop

My mind is going crazy today with the anticipation that I'm running a fricken marathon tomorrow.

Holy shit.

Again.

I'm kicking myself for every training run I skipped, every day I took off, every time I fell off the training bandwagon...

I'm looking at my training schedule the past four months and regretting the time I took off- once because I was injured (although it's hard to regret this b/c I'm not feeling any pain or twinge at all so it must have been a good thing that I took two weeks off), once because I was sick, once after my 18-miler b/c I felt like my body needed an entire week to recover...

I'm reiewing every decision and thinking to myself, "Ugh, why was I too lazy that day to just go run a few miles..."

Did I focus too much on strength training and not enough on running?

Then I tell myself to stop.

Then I start psyching myself up for tomorrow.

I remind myself that I'm going to hit a wall- everyone does. I'm probably going to feel aches and pains in my hips. I'm going to get tired.

But I'm strong. I'm tough. I'm mentally ready and I'm physically trained. I'm going to hit the wall and climb over it. I'm going to run through the aches and pains. I'm going to finish strong.

I'm strong.
I'm ready.
Let's do this.

And in five minutes, I'll be back to doubting myself.

Let's get this party overwith...

Kelsalynn