Connection

As you know from my last post, my family surprised me by flying into AZ from MI for my birthday (which is today by the way!).

I was stunned... I had no idea! And my wonderful husband kept it a secret for two months! It's a little scary that he can keep that big of a secret for that long! Maybe I should be worried... nah!

I had a great time with my Dad and my sisters. The ditziness level goes from 3 (b/c we've already discussed how ditzy I can be by myself) to 10 as soon as we get together! We have absolutely no filter and all of us love to talk and pick on each other so it's one continuous joke... Michael's analogy for my sisters and I is that we're the "perfect storm"-- apart, we may cause a bit of trouble, but nothing major... but together, we kill people. lol

On Saturday night, my sisters and I went to Applebee's after my Dad went to sleep and we got margaritas. We sat there for hours and just talked. It was awesome! I realized something sitting there- just like I can say that my friends Amy and Lexi know me better than anyone, my sisters also know me betterthan anyone, but in a very different way.

Growing up, we most definitely saw things that most kids do not see, we experienced things we never should have been exposed to at a young age, and we had to learn to cope with the way things were back then. These experiences shaped us into who we are and play a big role in why we act the way we do. We share detailed memories that we wish we didn't have... the kind that most days, you don't think about, but once in a while they resurface and give us each a stomach ache or make us cry all over again or make us want to talk to one another. We are the only people who understand each other in this regard. I will always have a connection with them that cannot be shared by anyone, even my husband, or Lexi, or Amy because these memories just can't be shared completely.

I may not always understand my relationship with my sisters... at some times, it may be destructive and a lot of the time, I may wish it was different. But I realized this weekend how much I love them and appreciate them. I accept the relationship we have and I'm thankful they're a part of my life- in whatever capacity that may be.

Until tomorrow,
Kelsalynn