Day 3 - Crap
>> Wednesday, April 14, 2010
I had another really crummy day at work. I talked to my sister on the way home from the office and I cried. I got home and had a really long conversation with my hubby...and I cried.
I cried AT work EVEN- to a colleague and also to one of my bosses (which I regret, but oh well).
It's just really hard right now and I'm questioning what my role is and even if I want to continue playing that role.
I realized something tonight though... 2 months ago when we all interviewed to keep our jobs, I was chosen to stay. They kept me and they did that for a reason. I honestly think it's because they knew I was strong enough to put up with the bull shit that's going on right now. I know for certain that the other 2 supervisors who were let go could not handle what I'm currently facing... they were frustrated when things were "easy" so what's going on now would have pushed them over the edge for sure.
I fell for the mind games that a few of the people are playing right now- where they put me down in order to pump themselves up...and shame on me for falling for it! What was I thinking?
Those idiots have nothing on me. I'm smarter, more adaptable, and more respected by my team because I'm not a total jackass nor do I treat people that way.
They messed with the wrong girl.
KelsaLynn
PS: No, I didn't workout. (I WILL do my 42 burpees before I go to bed though) I'm pretty sure I lost weight in tears though. :-P
5 comments:
<> i feel like work is crazy for a lot of people right now. a lot of changes going on. as bad as it is for the people who are let go, the people who are left usually deal with a whole lotta crap in the aftermath and are expected to just suck it up because they should be grateful to have a job.
hang in there and keep believing in yourself.
Oh, Kelsa! *hugs* and more *hugs*. I think we missed the Monday "Work is going to kick everyone's ass this week" Memo.
You are sure right about one thing though - you are strong. Whenever I'm faced with a hard choice I think about you. I think about what you would tell me to do or how you would handle it.
Just remember, "This too shall pass".
And more *hugs*
They certainly are messing with the wrong girl.
Sorry to hear that work is being so terrible to you!
I'm sorry about work! You don't even want to know how many days I've been crying at work this year. I hope this week is better for both of us!
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