Cleansing

For some reason, I think blogging about this will make me feel less guilty... we'll see if it works.

Normally when I "splurge" with my diet, it's here or there- maybe I'll go out for lunch or maybe I'll drink a frappe from McDonald's. Truthfully, I don't feel too guilty about these instances b/c I honestly feel like I'm healthy most of the time and the only reason I don't go crazy and have serious binges is b/c I allow myself these random bad-for-me-but-oh-so-good foods.

But holy hell, today was terrible. I ate shit all day long. We were treating some of our clerical employees to breakfast so I didn't eat at home. I drank my coffee on my way to work like normal, then we went to breakfast where I had a breakfast burrito. Not terrible but it had cheese and of course the tortilla. Inside were eggs and turkey sausage. I also drank coffee while sitting there. Since I ate so late in the morning, I didn't eat the morning snack I packed (which was healthy of course) and I continued to drink coffee. By noon, I hadn't drank any water which is totally rare for me.

I went to lunch with some coworkers (although, again, I packed a very healthy lunch for myself) and had a grilled chicken wrap. Again, not terrible but there was cheese and the tortilla. At least the chicken was grilled and not fried. I finally had water- the only positive thing about going out for lunch I suppose.

Came back and had a meeting. I remember thinking I should eat my healthy snack before the meeting, but must have been distracted or interrupted or something. I ended up going to the meeting without eating it and so was of course hungry during it. There were pops there to drink so I had a Dr. Pepper. This was my body needing food, not sugar. Dumb me.

Leave the meeting, still don't eat and we leave almost immediately for a happy hour where I have tortilla chips, salsa, and queso dip in addition to a beer. All of which I probably could have passed up easily had I eaten properly during the day and my body wasn't craving SHIT.

Now I'm finally home and I'm going to eat a good dinner but jeesh, talk about a crappy day of eating for me! It's honestly one of the worst days I've had in a while.

My goal is to eat completely- 100% clean on Thursday and Friday. Saturday I'm playing softball all day and it's the kind where you get drunk and then play but hopefully Sunday I'll be back to eating clean.

Slap me for being so dumb and then wish me luck on not doing it again.

I'm curious, do you have any tricks for being disciplined with your eating?

Until tomorrow,